Astray

saying goodbye was the hardest part,but letting you go was the most painful chioice i have to make.

Almost Lover

State the obvious, i'll never get my perfect fantasy. I realized you love yourself more then you could ever love me.

*Taylor swift, Picture to burn.

After all the patient and the 'being silence' about all the small cut and bruses, I just cant handle it no more. I can be the nicest person in our life, not as your princess but as your slave. I'll be there when you want to. I'll spend my time and money for you. without even bother about it. but as your 'slave' i want some repayment for what all i've done. not another fight each and every night. you keep thinking about yourself. What about me? what am i to you? im not asking who am i to you but 'what' am i to you? you treat me right some of the time. what about most of the time? fill with another fight and egorisme in your voice. I finally had enough. I had enough. We'r not meant for each other anymore. or we were never be meant for one and other? i had wonderful time knowing you. you are special. but then there is a lot of friction between us. that causes sparks that turn into a huge range of fire that gonna burn us both.

i just wanna say thank you for bring me some joy for the past few month. you make me laugh. i appriciate it. but its time for us to go on our saperate ways. Just like the poem 'Road not Taken' I'll take the path which less travel by people. Its hard to walk on this world alone i must admint. without 'someone' by myside. I'll tried to lived it again. look on the bright side, i still have my Family, friends and most importantly, Him :) im sure Allah will always looked after me if i Always remember Him :)

I'am sick of the on and off motion. Im tired. im sure you understand. you wanna love ourself more then other right? you've got your wish :) love your self all you want it. because im out of here. Im tarriblely sad i must admint. but at the same time i feel like a burden have been lifted off me. i feel free. it must be lonley for me after this. but life must goes on. i think i can handle it. Time will heal it. Im sure.

Keep all thoes thing that i give to you as our memory, i dont want it back. Its for you. can i keep your so called ' Kemeja ' ? that is the only thing of yours that i have. i'll promise i keep it safe and warm. lastly, I dont hate you. I just had enough. Do take care, keep on studying.

Lots of love,

AH

Kbye AF

Ambik kau !

whattahell? aku dah tak reti nak post post bende ni lagi dah. pfttt. dah 4 month maa tak post -.- and it felt weird like siapa jee nak read my pathetic blog lagi? haha nevermind it just a diary for me once aku dah tua dah bercucu cicit aku tunjuk lah dkt cucu aku bertapa cool nya aku ada blog masa muda muda dulu :D hoyeahhh im cool ritee * muke excited.

well the freaking reason i wanna post zee post for today sebab aku nak cerita aku dah melangkah ke alam yang sangat awesome as taking picture dpn pintu pavi -__- okey that is just a sacrastic statement . well is not that pathetic lah. okey okey actually aku nak cerite yang aku dah masuk Institut Pengajian Tinggi Awam (IPTA) haa awesome kan bunyi dia. aku masuk UITM MELAKA ALOR GAJAH. okey aku bukan nak brag okey tulis besar besar bagai but hmm im just glad and syukur alhamdulilah dapat. Atlest i put a huge smile on my parents face when i entered here. when the last time you make your parent smile that wide? okey sentap sekejap. chill chill . nak tulis blog mesti nak santai santai kan. so buat lek broo.

so now kire dah 2 bulan lah aku dkt sini. it was an amazing experience though. tak pernah masuk asrama then aleh aleh berjauhan gini. at first i cant take the pressure lah, mak jauh siapa nak bagi makan lah mcm mana laundry ? duit cukup ke? siapa nak kejut subuh? bila masa pulak masa yang paling sesuai nak santai? kalau overbudget tak ada duit mcm mana :( haa thousand question membanjiri fikiran ku. but yang most important is macam mana kalau aku rindu mama papa ? how should i tell them ? call them and said i miss you? that would be soooo awkward man. i can tell. but i've learn to tell that to them in wte ways pun. even my annoying big brothers i miss them. haiyoo weird isnt? well people said you never know it untill its gone kan. bila dah jauh haa baru hang tau rindu abang abang hang yang hang pi dok gaduh gaduh dulu. dgn abg dulu pasal bantal pun nak gaduh , adehhh masalah betul. but yeah rindu suasana rumahh. wte pun i'll cope with it :)

now cerita dekat sini la pulak. masa dkt sini dpt byk kawan baru kawan lama semua baik baik belaka bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla ............................................................................................................................................................. okey stop !

semua orang ada pengalaman mcm tu, nak tulis pun bosan -.- okey frenkly ni aku nak ckp aku suke masuk sini. syukur aku dkt melaka je weh tak sanggup aku jauh jauh. meraung raung aku nak balik nanti. hahhaaha tak tipu -.- okey apa best dkt sini ? entah ! aku main rugby pulak tibe tibe dkt sini. it was fun pun :D i lokeeeeeeee

nak jujur ni. kawan aku tak ramai dkt sini hahahahahaha boleh percaya? aku lepak dgn org yang sama je balik balik. kenapa? sebab entah mmg aku mcm tu . tak suke lepak in a group yang besar. aku suke lepak 2 - 3 org je. ramai rami serabut ! nnt aku cite siapa aku lepaks. so malas nk cerite pasal study. everybody know how study was kan. so paham paham lah sendiri yoo.

Here some things i wanna share since dah 2 bulan dekat sini. hehe

if you turn out to be something as annoying and unplesent to watch like this, err there some problem with you. so please seek for medical attention pronto ! like seriously

if your lunch or dinner looks like this well chill out atleste you have somethig to eat maa. its normal ! kire beruntung dpt roti ohh cokolate kismis lagi apa ada hal? sedap apa ! dari makan biskun kering cecah teh o tanpa gula lagi sadis wehh. so aku belajar bersyukur kehadrat ilahi dpt mkn mcm ni pun. rasa seperti masakan ibunda tercinta wehhh :D hahahaha

Agak agak bukak wallet keluar kupu kupu tu ahhh itu lah tanda tanda seorang pelajar :D nampak nampak? agak agak bukak wallet tingal sekeping je then lain duit syilling je byk adoiyay macam mane ? lapar lee. relek ni perkara biasa der. haha haa here some tips for ya all ! okeyz? pftt. dah jadi mcm ni kan, kopak habis ni nak pegi ATM pun rase mesen tu gelak kan kau sbb tak isi pun dlm account kau. so gune lah duit syilling yang bergunung tu call mak bapak pakai publik mintak tolong bank in duit ! nampak nampak? haaaaa


Finally ! if dapat kawan kawan yang agak berbeza tapi serupa seperti di atas ini. haa itu lah rakan anda! di atas ini ialah wazee and tiqot. wazee same course but tiqot dia AD but still we manage to spend some time together maa. mana kenal diorg ? senang cerita time orentasi la baru purely kenal but turus lekat. kalau jumpe gelak satu libry boleh dengar. aku pun kdg kdg heran mcm mana boleh rapt dgn diorg. well we're meant for each other aww apahal la nak jiwang bagai ni hahah

K dah penat. till then kbye ~

NONE

I've lernt today that there is no Happy Ending eventhough for the perfect couples.

Who do You think you are ?

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